Life in Misery, oops...Missouri!

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

I want a freakin' baby...

seriously! I do, I want my own...maybe it's my biological clock ticking like a time bomb but really...how do you get it to stop? I know I'd make a good mom, I have a good support system I just don't have the right man! Can that be, I made changes in my life so as to never have regrets, and now I may have the biggest regret of all...not having my own child. Yes, it's for selfish reasons, I don't want my Nephew and Niece to have to watch over me in my old age, I want my own child to have to do it! I want Grandkids someday. I want, I want, I want! Of course, the saying goes" you can't always get what you want" but you can and I know it! I know I can...my problem is the man I am with absolutely refuses and it makes me mad...he'd be a great dad he just has these hang ups and is definitive about it. Is it really fair to take my God given right to bare a child away from me just because he's being selfish in his own way? No, so what is a girl to do? Any answers? Tell me your secret about how to get what you want without starting all over again! And none of that being deceitful crap either!